It's a point to rally behind, yeah? A matter of letting people be who they are, "leave us alone!"
"Some people like sports, some people like books! Let us be!"
"They're not 'guilty pleasures,' they're tastes."
"There's little difference between liking a popular thing and an unpopular thing, it's arbitrary."
"They're not 'guilty pleasures,' they're tastes."
"There's little difference between liking a popular thing and an unpopular thing, it's arbitrary."
I may still believe all of this.
Unfortunately, an image has attached itself to my mind which seems to want to present itself as a response to these beliefs:
When people see me reading a James Joyce book, I feel like a mummified fossil decomposing in the sun. Each page is another scrap of linen fluttering under the eyes of an observer, the words those personalized funerary spells covering the cadaver, making him an Osiris just like me. Preserver of a corpse, that's how I look compared to the man six feet away playing Soul Calibur II.
No one mocks me but I, and only in the eye.
There is no fandom for Ulysses's universe, no righteous defender of this ancestor of our thoughts. There are only strange looks, for I treat Finnegans Wake as if it merits a dozen rereads in a binge marathon just like a good rock album on an emotional night.
I've led myself out of touch, believing it to be for spiritual purposes, only to find years later I'm eleven thousand miles away from the frame of reference for anyone I care about. A sort of cul-de-sac, a dead-end street of the soul.
Yes, I focused on texts that made me happy. But what of it? Where now?